In the past two years, I have been away from home several times. I have travelled alone twice for a month, and another two times with friends. In total, I have been away from home for about 5 months. This time, however, before departing, I was overwhelmed with emotion. I was excited to explore the world and experience independence for several months, something I had been waiting for since I was 12 years old. Yet I felt scared, a feeling I have never felt in regards to travelling overseas. I wasn’t expecting to encounter these negative emotions and when I did, they hit me harder than I could ever imagine.
A week before leaving, I began to doubt my decision and whether I was capable to live in a foreign country that speaks a language I don’t understand. I cried and hyperventilated at work in paranoia that I wouldn’t make friends and would feel alone. I knew I was being irrational because I was meeting friends upon arrival overseas but the thought of being overseas for 8 months (away from family and close friends) was daunting. When I arrived at Sydney airport, I wasn’t as excited as I thought I’d be. My closest friends came to the airport to send me off and this made it even harder- I wished they were coming with me.
When I arrived in London, I met up with my English friends (who I hadn’t seen in over a year). They made me realise that I was being worried for no reason at all. They made me feel like I was home. During my travels around Europe, I made so many friends that I never thought I would make. I have already booked a trip to Barcelona in September with two girls who I met during my travels. All these fears seemed ridiculous but remember, it’s normal. Sometimes you can’t let them get to your head, and you need to just jump on the plane and go before you decide otherwise.
I have been travelling for 3 weeks now around Europe and am yet to arrive in Germany to start my semester abroad. I am looking forward to making new friends and to the adventures ahead!
By Jessica Faccin, 11979667, DAB